09-22-2022, 02:04 AM
(This post was last modified: 09-22-2022, 02:07 AM by Jay Carpenter.)
Jay was exhausted (and now, relaxed) enough to sleep. In fact, he probably dozed off more than once without intending to. Time was a blur down there, completely disconnected from technology. Hell, even sunlight was a memory.
Between moments of lucidity, he wondered about how all this started and if it could ever happen again. He’d go where sent, of course. Next time the mission called he’d probably be all the more a willing soldier. Admittedly, when they first left topside, he followed orders less because of the mission and more to seek escape. He wanted blood and gore if only to imagine every single thing he ripped apart was Amengual all over again, but Cayli and his parents felt like another life. One that wasn’t even his.
He’d never really felt like a part of that family, he knew now, and laying in the filth, body wracked to the point of exhaustion, having fought tooth and nail for a mission not his own, he realized why. It was with a surprising amount of acceptance that Jay acknowledged his fate. Family, normalcy – would never be part of his life because was meant for this. And this alone.
With that thought, he did finally doze off long enough to eventually recuperate the energy to head toward the surface.
Between moments of lucidity, he wondered about how all this started and if it could ever happen again. He’d go where sent, of course. Next time the mission called he’d probably be all the more a willing soldier. Admittedly, when they first left topside, he followed orders less because of the mission and more to seek escape. He wanted blood and gore if only to imagine every single thing he ripped apart was Amengual all over again, but Cayli and his parents felt like another life. One that wasn’t even his.
He’d never really felt like a part of that family, he knew now, and laying in the filth, body wracked to the point of exhaustion, having fought tooth and nail for a mission not his own, he realized why. It was with a surprising amount of acceptance that Jay acknowledged his fate. Family, normalcy – would never be part of his life because was meant for this. And this alone.
With that thought, he did finally doze off long enough to eventually recuperate the energy to head toward the surface.
Only darkness shows you the light.