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Need My Fix - Tatyana - 12-09-2025
Tatyana deliberated about it for a couple of days, but could come to no reason why she shouldn’t learn to control her power without being intoxicated. She didn’t want to be beholden to anyone, but she didn’t know what other options she had. Not taking her pills was difficult. They were right there. She just needed to take one and everything would be okay, but in order to learn how to use magic sober, she had to be sober.
So as she walked into the Red Light district a couple of days later, she was feeling it. She hadn’t take her pill the night before, and body demanded it. They were in her box. It would be so easy. She could feel her pain, but she was afraid too. Scared they were going to ask her things she didn’t want to talk about. Tatyana knew left to her own devices she wouldn’t go to Kallisti. Not like this, so she didn’t head there.
Instead she went to Hayden’s bar. Had she not left sober, she wouldn’t have been able to find it. She hesitated at the door. Her hands were held together to still the trembling within them. She let go and reached for the bell to ring, hesitated again, and then finally pressed it before bringing her hands together again.
She looked down and when someone answered the door, presumably Hayden, she spoke quickly, afraid the words would get stuck. ”Won’t go to Kallisti on my own. Will you walk me there.”
RE: Need My Fix - Hayden - 12-11-2025
It had been a few days, the bar was almost nearly open so he wasn't expecting anyone not even any deliveries, it was to be a quiet day.
He padded down stairs and opened the door to find the wayward soul Ashton had brought by. She looked rough, not bad, just like she didn't want to be alive. Sober was the word he was looking for. He nodded at her request. "Come on in. Let me get my shoes and coat." He nodded towards the stairs, sorta an invite but not outright he wasn't sure where she was comfortable with their interactions.
He didn't go far once he was inside his rather open living space, the living room and kitchen were larger than he needed but it made for entertaining easy. The back was his room and the door to that was closed. Hayden still had boxes in corners. He hadn't fully moved in. And he wasn't sure he ever would. The boxes reminded him that this was a temporary assignment. Not that he couldn't make Moscow a home. And he didn't exactly miss London.
Hayden pulled on his boots and laced them up before grabbing his big puffy coat. "Alright, let's go."
Kallisti wasn't far, it was like two blocks but even in the cold it could be rough. Hayden lead Tanya around the corner and past Nox's home "Nox lives here." He didn't say where, there was only one place despite it being a three story building. And it had two tiny offices, everything else as Nox's home. And while he didn't need any of it, Hayden knew he used every bit of it for his misfit family.
Kallisti was another block away and Hayden took Tanya down the alley side entrance. He buzzed the buzzer, he didn't have a key or access though he could probably ask for it since nearly everyone there availed themselves of his so-called expertise. The door opened and a small Japenese girl opened the door. She smiled at Hayden and he grinned back. "Hey Mae, this is Tanya, she's here to see Juls and the other girls."
Mae giggled. "No one ever needs help I can offer." It wasn't true there were people who she could help she just choose not to be available for such things. Her thing was sex and she preferred to keep her company mostly outside of the club.
Hayden took Tanya out front to where the girls would be practicing. He didn't interrupt them waiting for Juls to come to him. It was several moments before she noticed and wave. He grinned back with a small wave of his own. When Juls stood in front of him in costume and a flame illusion he made the introductions "This is Tanya, she's looking for some help breaking her block."
Juls nodded. "Nox's isn't here, but I'm sure we can all give you a helping hand. Pretty sure I got his notes on hand now."
RE: Need My Fix - Tatyana - 12-12-2025
Tatyana didn't feel comfortable following him upstairs, but she was afraid she'd book it if she was by her self, so she reluctantly followed, not straying far into his Hayden's living space. She didn't look around, just focused on keeping her hands from shaking. Hayden got his coat and boots and they left, heading through the cold Moscow winter to their destination. He mentioned Nox living somewhere, but she didn't look. She was already scared they were going to make her one of theirs and didn't want the reminder. Her mind kept going to her pills. She was beginning to think this was a mistake.
The pair arrived at Kallisti and one of the dancers answered. Hayden appeared to be well acquainted with her and she wondered what sort of relationship he had with these people. Tatyana's quickly reverted back to thinking of her fix. Each step into the club and she felt her heart rate quicken. She began to whimper softly, trying to keep from crying. Her insides hurt so bad. She hated feeling so much.
There was a woman there who looked like she was on fire. Tatyana could feel the power around her. This was the first time she had met someone who could do what she could - at least that she knew. She looked down as the on fire lady approached. She hugged herself in another attempt to stop her shaking hands. She was a moment away from giving up on this, taking her pill, and leaving. Fear wasn't something she was used to, but for the first time in a long time, she really felt afraid to be here.
It took a moment for her to speak. "Can't...can't... she found herself unable to focus. "Can't use it unless I'm intoxicated." She didn't add that it didn't seem to matter whether it was drugs or booze, but she wasn't sure that mattered.
RE: Need My Fix - Hayden - 12-13-2025
Hayden was sure he wasn't needed but he stayed for now. Most of the kids were at school, but there was still a handful about. He sat down at a table with Liam who typed with one hand and held Lily against his chest with the other. "I can hold her for a while.
Liam handed her over and began his studies as if nothing had changed.
Juls took Tanya by the elbow and sat her down. "What do you feel when you are holding the power while intoxicated? What where you doing when it first happened?"
RE: Need My Fix - Tatyana - 12-13-2025
Hayden went over to talk to a man holding a baby and Tatyana was left with the on fire lady. She flinched and tensed as the woman grabbed her elbow and led her to a place to sit. She sat without a word and kept her hands around her body. Despite her trying, her hands still shook. One hand moved down to her coat pocket where her pills were. It was hard to focus on anything but that.
Still Tatyana heard her questions. Fire lady wasn't judging her for her out of control emotions right now at least. She seemed to want to get right to work. Tatyana tried to make herself appear smaller. She wasn't used to being afraid, but she was even as she knew she probably shouldn't be. Was a couple of weeks ago. Three guys tried to take my food. I fought back. Two grabbed me. I threw the other across the alley then fought the other two away." Her voice was quiet and unsure. "Got really sick after that, but not since then. I try to practice, but can only touch it when I'm high or drunk."
Her hand squeezed the box in her pocket. She needed her meds so bad. She sniffled, holding back tears and wiped at her nose. "It feels...warm." she finally said. "Don't know how else to describe it." The whole time, she kept her head down, her eyes gazing at a spot on the carpet.