06-17-2020, 03:36 PM
Just once. It sounded like the easiest thing in the world, and an utter impossibility all at once.
Nox pulled him close, and Raffe let his eyes shut. The words weren’t entirely a comfort, and he was not sure what he felt about Nox’s choice to be a weapon. It squeezed in his chest, painful and sad. Because it wasn’t a choice, that desire to protect. Recognising its flame in his own heart was perhaps what made him feel so afraid of the possibility. Because surely it came with responsibility. Certainly it came with temptation.
He tried to match his breath; focused on the press of his forehead and tangle of fingers in the front of his shirt. Denying emotion wasn’t his strongest suit, though. When his heart did slow, it was into the support of not being alone with the burden rather than any real desire to try and discover and harness the power, even though he knew he should -- that Nox would worry until he did.
He sat for a long time in silence before he finally pulled back. His brows were knit with discomfort, and a little guilt. “I think I need some time to get my head around it first.”
Nox pulled him close, and Raffe let his eyes shut. The words weren’t entirely a comfort, and he was not sure what he felt about Nox’s choice to be a weapon. It squeezed in his chest, painful and sad. Because it wasn’t a choice, that desire to protect. Recognising its flame in his own heart was perhaps what made him feel so afraid of the possibility. Because surely it came with responsibility. Certainly it came with temptation.
He tried to match his breath; focused on the press of his forehead and tangle of fingers in the front of his shirt. Denying emotion wasn’t his strongest suit, though. When his heart did slow, it was into the support of not being alone with the burden rather than any real desire to try and discover and harness the power, even though he knew he should -- that Nox would worry until he did.
He sat for a long time in silence before he finally pulled back. His brows were knit with discomfort, and a little guilt. “I think I need some time to get my head around it first.”