Safe For Now

[Nox]

Nox was sorry about Nova too. It was his fault. Though he wouldn't say more than that. He didn't want to make Raffe feel any worse than he already did. His hand laid between then in invitation. There was little hesitation as Nox entwined his fingers in Raffe's. "I don't know. Since waking there has been this hunger. This need that isn't really mine."

Nox didn't look at Raffe but he gave the other man a wry smile. "It's not to say that my desire isn't already there, but with each electric kiss there is always more. Part that isn't me because the logic of it is instinct based. It's a two-fold dark hunger. I had to feed one, so the other didn't overtake me and hurt you. I don't want to hurt you, but this." Nox lifted his hand holding Raffe's and squeezed, "This feels like home, safe and you are safe. But I'm not." He said it out loud. "I need to go see the Ascendancy - tell him what lies beneath the city and that I'm connected somehow. I might not walk away from it, but if I do I'm going to find the man who hunted me today. He's Atharim. And they might be able to help - after I help him any way he might help me."

Nox took a deep breath. "I know my life is crazy. And I know it's a lot to ask, but I hope you don't tell me to fuck off any time soon."