The tears began to recede and Elyse began to calm down. The emotions were still strong in her and the pain was still there. It wasn't currently growing, but it wasn't diminishing either. Sierra mentioned her own guilt and how she had to learn to forgive herself. It sounded easy. Easier than Elyse knew it was.
Elyse stood, wrapping her arms around herself. Her nails touched the skin of her forearms and she longed to scratch, that wouldn't hurt too much, but instead her fingers flexed a bit against flesh, she wasn't able to hurt herself. She didn't want to hurt herself. Elyse took small steps, walking closer to Sierra. She didn't hug her but leaned against her, resting her head on Sierra's shoulder.
"I've missed you," she said, her voice a whisper. She remained silent for awhile. "What's wrong with me? How do I forgive myself? I've tried, it's just so strong, and I'm not...not anymore."
Elyse stood, wrapping her arms around herself. Her nails touched the skin of her forearms and she longed to scratch, that wouldn't hurt too much, but instead her fingers flexed a bit against flesh, she wasn't able to hurt herself. She didn't want to hurt herself. Elyse took small steps, walking closer to Sierra. She didn't hug her but leaned against her, resting her head on Sierra's shoulder.
"I've missed you," she said, her voice a whisper. She remained silent for awhile. "What's wrong with me? How do I forgive myself? I've tried, it's just so strong, and I'm not...not anymore."