Elyse looked at him and for the first time really saw Hayden. And now it made sense why Nox had picked him. Because his solution was so easy. She had said it herself. It was impersonal. So the answer was make it personal. She began to look around. There was space there for a dining room table where everyone could eat together. The walls, simply whitewashed had significant room for artwork or wall hanging. The curtains were atrocious. Put up someone who just wanted someone there. The sofa was a gross gray. It looked like a fortress, but now she could see it as a canvas.
Elyse stood up, ”Excuse me, I’ll be right back,”
She went upstairs and pulled, grabbed a notebook and a pencil. And then head back down and began to write a shopping list. She’d have Anna help. The whole place could just use a woman’s touch.
”Seems incredibly simple, she said. ”But might help. Certainly couldn’t hurt.” she looked up from her writing. ”But there is a bigger issue here. Guilt. It’s there. Always - eating me from the inside.” mentioning it caused it to rise up within her. She began to cry. ”I don’t know how to stop it. Everyone says I shouldn’t be feeling it, but it won’t stop. I can’t make it stop, even when I tell myself I didn’t do anything wrong.” she wiped her eyes and finished off her orange juice. ”Why can’t I stop it, Hayden. What am I doing wrong?”
Elyse stood up, ”Excuse me, I’ll be right back,”
She went upstairs and pulled, grabbed a notebook and a pencil. And then head back down and began to write a shopping list. She’d have Anna help. The whole place could just use a woman’s touch.
”Seems incredibly simple, she said. ”But might help. Certainly couldn’t hurt.” she looked up from her writing. ”But there is a bigger issue here. Guilt. It’s there. Always - eating me from the inside.” mentioning it caused it to rise up within her. She began to cry. ”I don’t know how to stop it. Everyone says I shouldn’t be feeling it, but it won’t stop. I can’t make it stop, even when I tell myself I didn’t do anything wrong.” she wiped her eyes and finished off her orange juice. ”Why can’t I stop it, Hayden. What am I doing wrong?”