Elyse smiled, the first true smile in a long time. She still hurt, but not as bad as before. ”Some more would be great, I’ve not been eating much lately.” he put some more on her plate.
She began to eat more. Elyse understood about the cooking. Nox was a phenomenal cook it was probably the thing she missed most about not being together. That among other things. She thought about Ana - it had been a long time since she had checked in with the woman. It might not be a bad idea to do so. She could talk to her about Mae and figure out what she wanted there. Of course, she could probably talk to Hayden too, if it didn’t bore him.
She wasn’t surprised by his Atharim talk, and she would have assumed that Nox knew anyways. Hayden wouldn’t have told her otherwise. It wouldn’t have made any sense at all. She found now that he wasn’t trying to get some sort of reaction out of her, he was easy to talk to.
”Never wanted to kill myself. I told Adrian I didn’t. I guess I understand why they’d want to take it a step further. Only thought about cutting, and I didn’t want to do that either. I didn’t want it to get that far. I don’t know if that makes sense,”she looked at him. Right now she was calm, her burst of anger had subsided. ”My mom was the big one, you okay if I talk your ear off some more. It’s nice not to isolate.”
”Talk away,” he said.
”I wanna talk about Mae. Mae’s my girlfriend, or ex-girlfriend, or…it’s complicated right now. I told her I loved her, and well, it wa not reciprocated. Turns out that might not be something she’ll ever feel. She’s in a committed relationship with a couple others. She might not want that with me. I told her it was okay if she didn’t reciprocate, but it was still painful. We didn’t fight or anything. I just need to figure out what I want and go from there. I don’t know. I’m not sure what to do about it yet. I like being with her and now. I’m not sure if I’m asking for advice or rambling here, but if you have any - I wouldn’t mind it.”
She began to eat more. Elyse understood about the cooking. Nox was a phenomenal cook it was probably the thing she missed most about not being together. That among other things. She thought about Ana - it had been a long time since she had checked in with the woman. It might not be a bad idea to do so. She could talk to her about Mae and figure out what she wanted there. Of course, she could probably talk to Hayden too, if it didn’t bore him.
She wasn’t surprised by his Atharim talk, and she would have assumed that Nox knew anyways. Hayden wouldn’t have told her otherwise. It wouldn’t have made any sense at all. She found now that he wasn’t trying to get some sort of reaction out of her, he was easy to talk to.
”Never wanted to kill myself. I told Adrian I didn’t. I guess I understand why they’d want to take it a step further. Only thought about cutting, and I didn’t want to do that either. I didn’t want it to get that far. I don’t know if that makes sense,”she looked at him. Right now she was calm, her burst of anger had subsided. ”My mom was the big one, you okay if I talk your ear off some more. It’s nice not to isolate.”
”Talk away,” he said.
”I wanna talk about Mae. Mae’s my girlfriend, or ex-girlfriend, or…it’s complicated right now. I told her I loved her, and well, it wa not reciprocated. Turns out that might not be something she’ll ever feel. She’s in a committed relationship with a couple others. She might not want that with me. I told her it was okay if she didn’t reciprocate, but it was still painful. We didn’t fight or anything. I just need to figure out what I want and go from there. I don’t know. I’m not sure what to do about it yet. I like being with her and now. I’m not sure if I’m asking for advice or rambling here, but if you have any - I wouldn’t mind it.”