Cade would be meeting with Nox sometime relatively soon. Who knew what Nox was up to now. If Cade ever told Nox about his dreams though he would hear more about monsters from his brother. There were two in them that Elyse had recognized and out of all of them, they were the two that Elyse was most scared of. It had to have been a shock for Anna to see that though. Especially the death.
Death was something Elyse didn't want to talk about though. Instead she just closed her eyes as Anna stroked her hair. It was nice. Elyse had never thought of Anna in a romantic way, and even still she didn't, despite how intimate they were right now. Anna had said Elyse was her best friend, and Elyse felt the same. She even interlaced her fingers with Anna's and it wasn't resisted.
"Anna, you going to work tonight?" Elyse asked, opening her eyes. Anna nodded. "You okay with me staying here while you're gone?"
"Of course - I gave you a key!"
Elyse smiled. "Of course," Elyse turned serious. "Anna, I"m the only one left now. I have no family anymore." Anna squeezed her hand. "Yes - I know - you and Kallisti, but this is hard. I loved them, and...it all ended so fast." A few tears fell and were wiped away by Anna's gentle hand. "I know now that my father was just a bad person, but I don't know if I should feel sad, angry, or relieved about his being gone. What should I be feeling Anna?"
Anna looked away in thought. "I'm not sure, but maybe all of them are valid. You cared for your parents, but because of how things went, you're angry too. You're relieved because it's over. Maybe you don't need to feel one of them. Maybe you need to feel all of them. That's probably super confusing and not a help, but it's what I think. There isn't anything wrong with you for having multiple emotions at once, but I can understand why it would make things harder to deal with. Which emotion is the strongest right now?"
Elyse nodded and thought about that. It was incredibly simple, but it made sense. She thought about Anna's question. "I think it's the sadness right now - you think I should just focus on one and work my way through it?"
Anna shrugged. "I'm no therapist, but that's what I would do."
Elyse laughed, Anna's line about being a therapist reminded her of Hayden. "Sorry - Nox sent someone to talk to me after I started the self harm thoughts. He says that a lot."
Elyse didn't elaborate on his therapy techniques, but it got her to thinking about something that had been on her mind. "Hey, I have a strange question to ask you if that's okay?" Anna agreed. "I'll preface this by saying it's not a proposition, it's just something I've wondered about. Would you ever sleep with me?" It was something she had thought about since before they became friends. Even now that they were friends, it was a thought that hadn't gone away. She found herself comfortable enough to ask it, even as she hoped that it didn't make Anna uncomfortable.
Death was something Elyse didn't want to talk about though. Instead she just closed her eyes as Anna stroked her hair. It was nice. Elyse had never thought of Anna in a romantic way, and even still she didn't, despite how intimate they were right now. Anna had said Elyse was her best friend, and Elyse felt the same. She even interlaced her fingers with Anna's and it wasn't resisted.
"Anna, you going to work tonight?" Elyse asked, opening her eyes. Anna nodded. "You okay with me staying here while you're gone?"
"Of course - I gave you a key!"
Elyse smiled. "Of course," Elyse turned serious. "Anna, I"m the only one left now. I have no family anymore." Anna squeezed her hand. "Yes - I know - you and Kallisti, but this is hard. I loved them, and...it all ended so fast." A few tears fell and were wiped away by Anna's gentle hand. "I know now that my father was just a bad person, but I don't know if I should feel sad, angry, or relieved about his being gone. What should I be feeling Anna?"
Anna looked away in thought. "I'm not sure, but maybe all of them are valid. You cared for your parents, but because of how things went, you're angry too. You're relieved because it's over. Maybe you don't need to feel one of them. Maybe you need to feel all of them. That's probably super confusing and not a help, but it's what I think. There isn't anything wrong with you for having multiple emotions at once, but I can understand why it would make things harder to deal with. Which emotion is the strongest right now?"
Elyse nodded and thought about that. It was incredibly simple, but it made sense. She thought about Anna's question. "I think it's the sadness right now - you think I should just focus on one and work my way through it?"
Anna shrugged. "I'm no therapist, but that's what I would do."
Elyse laughed, Anna's line about being a therapist reminded her of Hayden. "Sorry - Nox sent someone to talk to me after I started the self harm thoughts. He says that a lot."
Elyse didn't elaborate on his therapy techniques, but it got her to thinking about something that had been on her mind. "Hey, I have a strange question to ask you if that's okay?" Anna agreed. "I'll preface this by saying it's not a proposition, it's just something I've wondered about. Would you ever sleep with me?" It was something she had thought about since before they became friends. Even now that they were friends, it was a thought that hadn't gone away. She found herself comfortable enough to ask it, even as she hoped that it didn't make Anna uncomfortable.