The Long Way Home

[Nox]

Nox admitted to himself that he wasn't good with feelings. At least other peoples. Or his own, but he knew he talked alot too. And he never said the right things. It was all knowledge he knew but it didn't change the fact that he didn't know what Jay wanted him to say. He'd apologized. Said he was like a brother. He said he was an asshole. What more was there?

But Jay clearly wanted to hear something specific. He raised his voice, gripped the railing too tight likely hurting his hand further in his attempt to not strike him or maybe it was something else. Nox continued to lean on the railing staring out into the dark water, it was probably covered in a thin layer of ice that would keep anyone from falling in under the water.

"I will admit I'm terrible at apologies, but I don't know what you want to hear. I could blame the lack of emotions and empathy from the severing but I wasn't very good before losing the power. I love you like a brother. I remember that feeling. You can take whatever rage out on me that you like. It's nothing more than I deserve. And I wish I could say what you want to hear without prompting. I'm sorry I ended things with an impersonal text and cut you out of my life. I'm sorry I hurt you and betrayed you."

The emptiness was all he had. Nox just stared into the water. He hung his head "I'm sorry for everything."