10-17-2025, 08:29 PM
Nox dug a little deeper into Eliot Languex once he got home. He knew way more than Eliot would think he knew now. Sage had been a wonderful help as had Sky. It was nice having an information junkie as a best friend. He owed Sage his life in more ways than one.
It was still a surprise to him that he wasn't angry with him. Not even a little and Sage didn't quite understand it. Nox didn't really understand it himself. It was easier to be angry with Hayden. Maybe because he could take it out physically on Hayden and Sage was a different story.
His life had surely changed. The people he thought meant the most to him meant less than he thought and others who should me less meant more. He was finding it hard to live with out Hayden or Oriena. And neither of them wanted more. That's mostly what he was mad at Hayden about. Hayden wanted him to feel, to be present, but Hayden didn't want to be present with him. At least not in the same way. And it pissed him off.
It shouldn't because the very thing Hayden accepted was the very thing that Raffe hated about him. And that was a whole can of worms he didn't want to think about. So it was just easier to be pissed off with Hayden. Not that he was talking much to Hayden. He seemed to understand that he didn't want to talk to him right now. Which was also pissing him off.
Feelings sucked!!
But it didn't matter anyway he had a meeting to get to. He knew Eliot would expect him to dress right for the job. Except he also told him to be himself. So Nox wore what he always wore, though there were no holes in his jeans or shirt, and he wore a perfectly fine hoodie, though he truly missed his. But it was with Raffe where the fuck he was. Totally didn't want to think about it, so Nox pushed it out of his head too.
He didn't wanna think. Didn't wanna feel, but here he was full powered up and feeling everything. But he was still grateful to feel the love from the kids who depended on him. They were the only thing that made feeling again worth anything.
Nox could have walked. Could have taken the subway and walked the rest of the way but instead he called a car and paid for it and they dropped him off outside the Garden, where he waited in the cold for Eliot to show up. There was no way in hell Eliot was getting inside without him at his side. He would be surprised if he even got in, but the Ascendancy had set the meeting so there it was. He was going to be sitting between two very opposite teams, both for whom he worked for.
It was still a surprise to him that he wasn't angry with him. Not even a little and Sage didn't quite understand it. Nox didn't really understand it himself. It was easier to be angry with Hayden. Maybe because he could take it out physically on Hayden and Sage was a different story.
His life had surely changed. The people he thought meant the most to him meant less than he thought and others who should me less meant more. He was finding it hard to live with out Hayden or Oriena. And neither of them wanted more. That's mostly what he was mad at Hayden about. Hayden wanted him to feel, to be present, but Hayden didn't want to be present with him. At least not in the same way. And it pissed him off.
It shouldn't because the very thing Hayden accepted was the very thing that Raffe hated about him. And that was a whole can of worms he didn't want to think about. So it was just easier to be pissed off with Hayden. Not that he was talking much to Hayden. He seemed to understand that he didn't want to talk to him right now. Which was also pissing him off.
Feelings sucked!!
But it didn't matter anyway he had a meeting to get to. He knew Eliot would expect him to dress right for the job. Except he also told him to be himself. So Nox wore what he always wore, though there were no holes in his jeans or shirt, and he wore a perfectly fine hoodie, though he truly missed his. But it was with Raffe where the fuck he was. Totally didn't want to think about it, so Nox pushed it out of his head too.
He didn't wanna think. Didn't wanna feel, but here he was full powered up and feeling everything. But he was still grateful to feel the love from the kids who depended on him. They were the only thing that made feeling again worth anything.
Nox could have walked. Could have taken the subway and walked the rest of the way but instead he called a car and paid for it and they dropped him off outside the Garden, where he waited in the cold for Eliot to show up. There was no way in hell Eliot was getting inside without him at his side. He would be surprised if he even got in, but the Ascendancy had set the meeting so there it was. He was going to be sitting between two very opposite teams, both for whom he worked for.
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