11 hours ago
(This post was last modified: 11 hours ago by Rachel Shale.)
Rachel knew Elyse had reasons too. They had spoken about it quite a bit. At least they had after Iason had healed her. Elyse had opened up more after that. ”She told me her story. Bits at a time so I didn’t get overwhelmed. It’s very sad. Glad the kids are well. Hope Liam has a good party. He deserves it. Seems like a fine young man.” she didn’t really know the other kids so well. Everything was quite a blur.
”You know I met Elyse the night of my rescue. I don’t remember much of anything for the weeks after it. Just a big blur. Something’s are clear others it’s like there is nothing there. Holding that baby was one of the things I remembered,” she smiled a bit at it. A memory of light in a lot of darkness. ”He asked me if I wanted to hold her. Said she was good at healing souls. I wanted to, but said no because I thought I’d drop her or something. He encouraged me to hold her anyways. I did. It’s a good memory. Like a shining light piercing the fog.”
She took a drink an her hands were beginning to calm down. The withdrawals didn’t often last to long anymore. ”Theres something I’m really nervous about. Well a couple things. Hope I’m a good aunt. Em ensures me I will be and so does Jared. But the other is with Elyse. I haven’t even told her yet. I don’t know how. Like i said - I don’t remember much, but I remember how I felt. The emotions were are so vivid. So much fear - so much lust. I’m worried that when things start to move and get get more…intimate…that it’s not going to be enough.” She sighed. ”I know how selfish that sounds, but it’s not about her abilities or anything. It’s about me being too broken to feel anymore. I’m worried it wouldn’t be enough with anyone. That - I’m so broken that I’m going to be alone.” she looked up at Hayden and gave a light chuckle. She hadn’t expected to say that this is what bothered her so often. ”I have no idea if I’m doing this right at all.”
”You know I met Elyse the night of my rescue. I don’t remember much of anything for the weeks after it. Just a big blur. Something’s are clear others it’s like there is nothing there. Holding that baby was one of the things I remembered,” she smiled a bit at it. A memory of light in a lot of darkness. ”He asked me if I wanted to hold her. Said she was good at healing souls. I wanted to, but said no because I thought I’d drop her or something. He encouraged me to hold her anyways. I did. It’s a good memory. Like a shining light piercing the fog.”
She took a drink an her hands were beginning to calm down. The withdrawals didn’t often last to long anymore. ”Theres something I’m really nervous about. Well a couple things. Hope I’m a good aunt. Em ensures me I will be and so does Jared. But the other is with Elyse. I haven’t even told her yet. I don’t know how. Like i said - I don’t remember much, but I remember how I felt. The emotions were are so vivid. So much fear - so much lust. I’m worried that when things start to move and get get more…intimate…that it’s not going to be enough.” She sighed. ”I know how selfish that sounds, but it’s not about her abilities or anything. It’s about me being too broken to feel anymore. I’m worried it wouldn’t be enough with anyone. That - I’m so broken that I’m going to be alone.” she looked up at Hayden and gave a light chuckle. She hadn’t expected to say that this is what bothered her so often. ”I have no idea if I’m doing this right at all.”