Today, 02:19 AM
Tatyana didn’t try to hold back the sobs. If she had, she wouldn’t have been able to. They came from deep inside. Her gut ached, but it wasn’t nausea. It hit her then - this is what it felt like to be depressed. She had heard of it. The pills had always kept it buried. The physical symptoms were still muted, presumably from whatever Liv had done with her magic.
She leaned her head against the wall of the shower as the tears began to subside. Inside she still felt the emptiness along with a myriad of emotions that couldn’t figure out which one was in control. Eventually she stood and exited the bathroom, not attempting to hide that she had been crying. There didn’t seem to be a point to hiding it. Kids were still playing here. She considered going back in the room to lay down, but had a feeling sleep wouldn’t come. So she went upstairs.
She could hear the noise of conversation on the floors above where the Kallisti people were hanging out. Tatyana wrapped her arms around herself as she tentatively took a step onto that floor into the open. She looked around and saw several people. Some like Juls she recognized, but most of them she didn’t. She had no idea if they knew her, but so far anyone she had come into contact with had known she had been taken in by Ashton once.
Tatyana took another step forward towards the crowd, unsure if she was welcome or even if she wanted to join in on their revelries. Part of her wanted to be around people. Part of her wanted to be alone. She had no idea which one she really wanted. Some looked her way as she took another step and wiped her face to try to take away the signs she had been crying. Her eyes were still red from it. The attention made her want to run and she took a step back, but didn’t turn around. Her hands clenched at her shirt nervously as she stepped forward again. She hadn’t committed yet. She wasn’t sure if she was going to.
She leaned her head against the wall of the shower as the tears began to subside. Inside she still felt the emptiness along with a myriad of emotions that couldn’t figure out which one was in control. Eventually she stood and exited the bathroom, not attempting to hide that she had been crying. There didn’t seem to be a point to hiding it. Kids were still playing here. She considered going back in the room to lay down, but had a feeling sleep wouldn’t come. So she went upstairs.
She could hear the noise of conversation on the floors above where the Kallisti people were hanging out. Tatyana wrapped her arms around herself as she tentatively took a step onto that floor into the open. She looked around and saw several people. Some like Juls she recognized, but most of them she didn’t. She had no idea if they knew her, but so far anyone she had come into contact with had known she had been taken in by Ashton once.
Tatyana took another step forward towards the crowd, unsure if she was welcome or even if she wanted to join in on their revelries. Part of her wanted to be around people. Part of her wanted to be alone. She had no idea which one she really wanted. Some looked her way as she took another step and wiped her face to try to take away the signs she had been crying. Her eyes were still red from it. The attention made her want to run and she took a step back, but didn’t turn around. Her hands clenched at her shirt nervously as she stepped forward again. She hadn’t committed yet. She wasn’t sure if she was going to.