Tatyana lay next to him, her breathing beginning to come under control. Hayden began to talk and she used the time to listen and continue to get her breathing under control. Her eyes were beginning to adjust to the dimness of the room and she could see the vague shape of Hayden next to her. She snuggled up against him and put her arm across his chest as he finished speaking.
She opened her mouth to apologize for taking control, but stopped as she realized it wasn’t needed. Hayden wasn’t admonishing her for what she had done, but he was telling her a limit. ”I understand,” she said her voice even. ”Thank you for letting me explore a bit. I have to admit I’ve never orgasmed like that - the past two times that is. I like I’m more into the submissive side, so it shouldn’t be an issue going forward. Not that I didn’t thoroughly enjoy what just happened. ” it had been exhilarating. She took a breath before continuing. ”Its not just the thrill of danger. There’s more to it than that,” she hesitated, trying to find the right words, hoping he didn’t judge her for what she was about to admit. ”Its the thought of not being in control at all - that I’m at the complete whims of my partner. That they decide what happens and when - including when I finish. I got excited when you told me to fuck you - - but it was because you didn’t ask - you commanded. And the more I kept myself from climax the more excited I got for it to happen. It’s like…I’m into power dynamics too. Maybe that’s weird - I don’t know - but it’s what excites me.” she enjoyed their time together and hoped this wasn’t a deal breaker. She didn’t think it would be, but it worried her nonetheless. ”I think - if we continue, we’ll have to set limits, even though I don’t know what they are - and a safe word should probably be established too.” she understood the nature of consent, but understood those lines could be easily blurred with her particular kinks. A safe word would be necessary for that.
She opened her mouth to apologize for taking control, but stopped as she realized it wasn’t needed. Hayden wasn’t admonishing her for what she had done, but he was telling her a limit. ”I understand,” she said her voice even. ”Thank you for letting me explore a bit. I have to admit I’ve never orgasmed like that - the past two times that is. I like I’m more into the submissive side, so it shouldn’t be an issue going forward. Not that I didn’t thoroughly enjoy what just happened. ” it had been exhilarating. She took a breath before continuing. ”Its not just the thrill of danger. There’s more to it than that,” she hesitated, trying to find the right words, hoping he didn’t judge her for what she was about to admit. ”Its the thought of not being in control at all - that I’m at the complete whims of my partner. That they decide what happens and when - including when I finish. I got excited when you told me to fuck you - - but it was because you didn’t ask - you commanded. And the more I kept myself from climax the more excited I got for it to happen. It’s like…I’m into power dynamics too. Maybe that’s weird - I don’t know - but it’s what excites me.” she enjoyed their time together and hoped this wasn’t a deal breaker. She didn’t think it would be, but it worried her nonetheless. ”I think - if we continue, we’ll have to set limits, even though I don’t know what they are - and a safe word should probably be established too.” she understood the nature of consent, but understood those lines could be easily blurred with her particular kinks. A safe word would be necessary for that.