”I’m Penny,” she said as her stomach growled. She hadn’t eaten since before the house had collapsed. ”And I think food is a good idea.”
Penny let Nora lead the way. This was, after all, her home, or at least she knew where she was going. It was on that walk that she felt a sharp pain in her chest. It was the same pain she had felt on and off since the collapse. The pain of loss. Emotions flooded in her, but she was surprised that the strongest was anger and jealousy. Seeing the families out in the sanctuary had brought it on. The jealousy led to guilt.
Penny reached out a hand and grabbed Nora’s sleeve hard enough to signal the need for a stop. This corridor was quiet and Penny could feel the need to talk and vent before everything within her exploded. ”Nora…I need to talk.”
Penny looked down at the ground and when she started, everything just started to flow out. ”Mom’s…gone…since our house collapsed. Anita and her crew got me out brought me here. Almost didn’t make it if it wasn’t for the warm light. As we were getting closer it made a path rough the snow to the door. And…my dad…I never met him, but he’s out there and I don’t know where. And…since mom is… her voice hitched. Saying the word would make it more real than ever. ”Dead. I’m all alone now and I don’t know what going to happen to me. Quillion said maybe one of the medics did it, but it was me. The warm light was inside and even if I can’t find it again, I know it was me. And…I know there are people out there who think I shouldn’t exist and what if they find me. I’m…” she looked at Nora, her eyes wide. ”Im hurting. Sad, angry, jealous, guilty, scared, and lonely and confused. Nora…this has been the worst day of my life.” it wasn’t hyperbole.
Penny was breathing heavy when she finished, and it had surprised her that she hadn’t cried, but saying the words had helped. She felt lighter if not less scared and confused. She looked away again, pink coating her cheeks in embarrassment. ”Thanks for listening to that - it still hurts, but feels less intense. It’s just…I don’t know what’s going to happen to me now.
Penny let Nora lead the way. This was, after all, her home, or at least she knew where she was going. It was on that walk that she felt a sharp pain in her chest. It was the same pain she had felt on and off since the collapse. The pain of loss. Emotions flooded in her, but she was surprised that the strongest was anger and jealousy. Seeing the families out in the sanctuary had brought it on. The jealousy led to guilt.
Penny reached out a hand and grabbed Nora’s sleeve hard enough to signal the need for a stop. This corridor was quiet and Penny could feel the need to talk and vent before everything within her exploded. ”Nora…I need to talk.”
Penny looked down at the ground and when she started, everything just started to flow out. ”Mom’s…gone…since our house collapsed. Anita and her crew got me out brought me here. Almost didn’t make it if it wasn’t for the warm light. As we were getting closer it made a path rough the snow to the door. And…my dad…I never met him, but he’s out there and I don’t know where. And…since mom is… her voice hitched. Saying the word would make it more real than ever. ”Dead. I’m all alone now and I don’t know what going to happen to me. Quillion said maybe one of the medics did it, but it was me. The warm light was inside and even if I can’t find it again, I know it was me. And…I know there are people out there who think I shouldn’t exist and what if they find me. I’m…” she looked at Nora, her eyes wide. ”Im hurting. Sad, angry, jealous, guilty, scared, and lonely and confused. Nora…this has been the worst day of my life.” it wasn’t hyperbole.
Penny was breathing heavy when she finished, and it had surprised her that she hadn’t cried, but saying the words had helped. She felt lighter if not less scared and confused. She looked away again, pink coating her cheeks in embarrassment. ”Thanks for listening to that - it still hurts, but feels less intense. It’s just…I don’t know what’s going to happen to me now.