01-21-2018, 03:34 PM
Tenzin surprised her and Jacinda was taken aback. The way Regan died brought no words of correction, however gentle they might be, let alone any condemnation. She seemed....glad he was dead. She even....she even seemed to be comparing his death to a roug's. Jacinda didn't know if she'd ever be able to feel that way.
But Tenzin's passionate and animal reaction released something. She felt the tension, the last residue drain away. She wasn't sure what Regan was to her anymore. It had been so very long since he'd died. He would always be part of her. Did he still define her? She didn"t think so. It felt like the last hold he had was weakening. She could admit his weaknesses. To a point. Could acknowledge that something hadn't been right.
The full extent, no. Not now. Not yet. But it felt like something had changed.
Instead, she watched Tenzin describe what the charm meant to her. They were both a long way from home, from what was comfortable. And yet that easily, that freely, she gave it to her. Priceless. Jacinda smiled at her. She felt calm. At peace.
She had her anchor. She more than smiled.
Tiredness washed over her. Emotions were tiring. But....as bad as it was, it hadn't killed her. She was still here. And she had a.....sister, of sorts. It would do for now. She was a sister. But in many ways, more. Family.
Jacinda laughed. So funny. Took comin all the way to Moscow and nearly gettin killed to come to a home. Cuz it was a home now. Her home.
Jacinda looked at the charm one last time. It would never come off, nope. Not while she lived, no sir. From her cold dead body. That was the saying.
She stood, feeling her back spasm. Tired. Yeah she was. But refreshed at the same time. She looked down at the girl. Legs long. She was tall. Would hold her own. A partner. Yeah. She did like the sound of that. Not with her in the lead. Together. A team. Like a real team.
Maybe. If Tenzin wanted to. She hoped. Her heart did. A family. "You can't know what you did for me. I am your sister. Always. Always there for you. We are a team now."
On impulse she went to her, kneeled down, and hugged her tight, squeezed and felt her in her arms, the exotic alien earthy smell of her, her hair, the feel of her body, of her charms on her arms, and realized there were tears on her cheeks. God, she had cried so many fucking times tonight. Hehehe...so dumb. Such a girl.
No. She wouldn't belittle it. Not the sharing. It was ok to be open with Tenzin. She kissed Tenzin tenderly on the cheek, pulled back, looked in her honestly raw animalistically passionate eyes. Felt peace in those eyes. "Always your sister,"
she promised.
It was hard to let her go. She didn't want to. But she needed sleep. She was so tired. And Tenzin had given so much. Too much. Part of her wanted to sleep on the couch just so she could be in the same room, to hear the comforting breathing and presence of her, even as she did whatever she had been doing. Reading, maybe. Yeah. There had been a book. So nice. That would be home. Yeah it would.
But no. She'd taken too much from Tenzin and given nothing in return. She stood, holding her hand with both and squeezing. "Thank you."
She whispered. She meant it.
Edited by Jacinda, Jan 21 2018, 09:26 PM.
But Tenzin's passionate and animal reaction released something. She felt the tension, the last residue drain away. She wasn't sure what Regan was to her anymore. It had been so very long since he'd died. He would always be part of her. Did he still define her? She didn"t think so. It felt like the last hold he had was weakening. She could admit his weaknesses. To a point. Could acknowledge that something hadn't been right.
The full extent, no. Not now. Not yet. But it felt like something had changed.
Instead, she watched Tenzin describe what the charm meant to her. They were both a long way from home, from what was comfortable. And yet that easily, that freely, she gave it to her. Priceless. Jacinda smiled at her. She felt calm. At peace.
She had her anchor. She more than smiled.
Tiredness washed over her. Emotions were tiring. But....as bad as it was, it hadn't killed her. She was still here. And she had a.....sister, of sorts. It would do for now. She was a sister. But in many ways, more. Family.
Jacinda laughed. So funny. Took comin all the way to Moscow and nearly gettin killed to come to a home. Cuz it was a home now. Her home.
Jacinda looked at the charm one last time. It would never come off, nope. Not while she lived, no sir. From her cold dead body. That was the saying.
She stood, feeling her back spasm. Tired. Yeah she was. But refreshed at the same time. She looked down at the girl. Legs long. She was tall. Would hold her own. A partner. Yeah. She did like the sound of that. Not with her in the lead. Together. A team. Like a real team.
Maybe. If Tenzin wanted to. She hoped. Her heart did. A family. "You can't know what you did for me. I am your sister. Always. Always there for you. We are a team now."
On impulse she went to her, kneeled down, and hugged her tight, squeezed and felt her in her arms, the exotic alien earthy smell of her, her hair, the feel of her body, of her charms on her arms, and realized there were tears on her cheeks. God, she had cried so many fucking times tonight. Hehehe...so dumb. Such a girl.
No. She wouldn't belittle it. Not the sharing. It was ok to be open with Tenzin. She kissed Tenzin tenderly on the cheek, pulled back, looked in her honestly raw animalistically passionate eyes. Felt peace in those eyes. "Always your sister,"
she promised.
It was hard to let her go. She didn't want to. But she needed sleep. She was so tired. And Tenzin had given so much. Too much. Part of her wanted to sleep on the couch just so she could be in the same room, to hear the comforting breathing and presence of her, even as she did whatever she had been doing. Reading, maybe. Yeah. There had been a book. So nice. That would be home. Yeah it would.
But no. She'd taken too much from Tenzin and given nothing in return. She stood, holding her hand with both and squeezing. "Thank you."
She whispered. She meant it.
Edited by Jacinda, Jan 21 2018, 09:26 PM.