Not Looking For Little Red Riding Hood

[Elyse]

Elyse followed as Hayden led her out. She didn’t speak anymore, trying to figure out how she felt. Part of her felt sad, part of her felt relieved, and part of her felt angry. She mourned the loss of her parents when she didn’t think they had deserved it. At the same time she was glad they were gone because they had abandoned her when she had needed them the most. She couldn’t really focus on anything. It was all too confusing.

Hayden got them a cab, and she realized they never picked up her equipment. She could find it later anyways. Hayden took care of telling the driver where to go and then asked if she was okay. Elyse didn’t answer right away simply because she didn’t know. It was something she had noticed about the depression. She didn’t always feel sad. Sometimes she felt so much that she couldn’t describe it, but the fact that she didn’t know if she was okay or not told her she wasn’t.

Still she didn’t answer, just rested her head on Hayden’s shoulder and shook her head no. She wrapped her arms around him in a hug. Tears didn’t fall and she didn’t cry. She just felt incredibly empty and drained. She sat there as the driver went through the city and she tried. She tried to find a way to verbalize what was going on, but in the end she just said. ”I don’t know how I should feel about this,”