Casey listened and the relationship between Juls and Nox lightened the tension a bit. Right now, he didn’t seem so scary, but she still felt a bit of fear within. She didn’t know if this was because what she was, if she was afraid of the power, failure, or if those old guilts were manifesting in a different way.
Juls made a ball of light and she could see it. Not just the light, but how it was made and how different threads of power wove together to form it. Her eyes gleamed in the light. Juls told her she had to embrace the power first. That was the first step.
”Okay…” she said, her voice trembling as she stood.
Casey closed her eyes. She probably didn’t need to, but it helped her focus a little bit she let out a few breaths, unsuccessfully trying to calm her nerves. She looked inside - where she had found that pool of power before. It was there - bright and shining. So strange and so familiar. Casey reached for it, and it slipped through her fingers. She tried again with similar results. Casey kept trying, and each time she felt like she was grabbing water. She just couldn’t. She began to get a little frustrated. Her hands closed into fists and tension began to stiffen her posture.
”So fucking close,” she said, her voice trembling. That’s when she saw the kids again and turned beet red. ”Sorry.”
”Casey…” Cadence there, touching her hand. ”I think you’re trying too hard. Remember what Juls said?”
Casey thought back. ”Like opening up to the sun,” she replied.
Cadence said one word. ”Surrender.”
Casey nodded. ”Okay…surrender. I can do that… her voice got really quiet. ”I think.”
Casey closed her eyes again, once again finding that bright light inside. It was easier this time as if she already knew where to look for it. This time instead of visualizing herself grabbing the power, she thought of just dipping her hand in it. She could feel it then - a moving current that wanted to take her with it. She felt herself become of afraid. Her breath quickened. She pulled back.
It was Juls words that came to her first. Open up. Then Cadence’s. Surrender. Open up. Surrender. The words echoed within her. So Casey saw herself instead walking into that power. The current surrounded her, begging her to come with. She let go.
Her fear vanished. Overwhelming peace surrounded her. She understood then what Juls had meant by opening up to the sun. She opened her eyes then and looked around. Everything looked brighter. The smell of perfume was stronger in her nostrils. She hadn’t realized it, but she had hugged herself as she had tried to embrace the power. She could feel the fibers of her shirt.
Casey turned, looking around the room. The colors were more vibrant. She felt her breath hitch and hot tears began to fall. ”Everything…everything looks so beautiful.” she wasn’t sure if the tears were because of beauty or just overwhelmed senses, but she knew it wasn’t sadness or fear. She felt powerful. She didn’t want to let it go.
Juls made a ball of light and she could see it. Not just the light, but how it was made and how different threads of power wove together to form it. Her eyes gleamed in the light. Juls told her she had to embrace the power first. That was the first step.
”Okay…” she said, her voice trembling as she stood.
Casey closed her eyes. She probably didn’t need to, but it helped her focus a little bit she let out a few breaths, unsuccessfully trying to calm her nerves. She looked inside - where she had found that pool of power before. It was there - bright and shining. So strange and so familiar. Casey reached for it, and it slipped through her fingers. She tried again with similar results. Casey kept trying, and each time she felt like she was grabbing water. She just couldn’t. She began to get a little frustrated. Her hands closed into fists and tension began to stiffen her posture.
”So fucking close,” she said, her voice trembling. That’s when she saw the kids again and turned beet red. ”Sorry.”
”Casey…” Cadence there, touching her hand. ”I think you’re trying too hard. Remember what Juls said?”
Casey thought back. ”Like opening up to the sun,” she replied.
Cadence said one word. ”Surrender.”
Casey nodded. ”Okay…surrender. I can do that… her voice got really quiet. ”I think.”
Casey closed her eyes again, once again finding that bright light inside. It was easier this time as if she already knew where to look for it. This time instead of visualizing herself grabbing the power, she thought of just dipping her hand in it. She could feel it then - a moving current that wanted to take her with it. She felt herself become of afraid. Her breath quickened. She pulled back.
It was Juls words that came to her first. Open up. Then Cadence’s. Surrender. Open up. Surrender. The words echoed within her. So Casey saw herself instead walking into that power. The current surrounded her, begging her to come with. She let go.
Her fear vanished. Overwhelming peace surrounded her. She understood then what Juls had meant by opening up to the sun. She opened her eyes then and looked around. Everything looked brighter. The smell of perfume was stronger in her nostrils. She hadn’t realized it, but she had hugged herself as she had tried to embrace the power. She could feel the fibers of her shirt.
Casey turned, looking around the room. The colors were more vibrant. She felt her breath hitch and hot tears began to fall. ”Everything…everything looks so beautiful.” she wasn’t sure if the tears were because of beauty or just overwhelmed senses, but she knew it wasn’t sadness or fear. She felt powerful. She didn’t want to let it go.