12-17-2025, 07:36 PM
If her words were any indication, fire lady didn’t understand why Tatyana was afraid - except for the emotions part. She wasn’t afraid of the outside. Outside the world made sense. The streets weren’t complete anarchy. There were rules and hierarchies. She understood those and her place in it. She was afraid to be in here, and even though she trusted Hayden’s words, it was a fragile trust. He had even said that if she disappeared, they might try to check in. Letting people in was what she was scared of. Not know the rules and hierarchies in here was what she was afraid of.
There was only one thing she really understood. This Nox guy was in charge. Almost all of them had mentioned him and they all seemed to speak of him in high regards. They all looked to him and his leadership. It had echoes of how the Vasiliev’s and the Casino looked to Konstantin. That scared her too and it was why she was glad he wasn’t here. She just wondered which one was the Sofia.
Tatyana had a purpose here, and the sooner she figured out what to do, the sooner she could have her meds and head back to Zeke. After she calmed, she could do some training. But for now, she had to figure out the power.
”Jonesing real bad,” she said to fire lady, confirming the suspicions that she needed her fix. It also made it hard to focus. The fog of withdrawal was worse than the fog of her high. Tatyana tried to find the light she talked about, but struggled. Focusing was hard. She began to get frustrated. ”Cant find it. Focusing is hard. I’m trying.” she said after a few moments, her voice shakey.
There was only one thing she really understood. This Nox guy was in charge. Almost all of them had mentioned him and they all seemed to speak of him in high regards. They all looked to him and his leadership. It had echoes of how the Vasiliev’s and the Casino looked to Konstantin. That scared her too and it was why she was glad he wasn’t here. She just wondered which one was the Sofia.
Tatyana had a purpose here, and the sooner she figured out what to do, the sooner she could have her meds and head back to Zeke. After she calmed, she could do some training. But for now, she had to figure out the power.
”Jonesing real bad,” she said to fire lady, confirming the suspicions that she needed her fix. It also made it hard to focus. The fog of withdrawal was worse than the fog of her high. Tatyana tried to find the light she talked about, but struggled. Focusing was hard. She began to get frustrated. ”Cant find it. Focusing is hard. I’m trying.” she said after a few moments, her voice shakey.