Yesterday, 01:09 PM
Tatyana didn't have a wallet. That's expected. But it would make stopping by hurt more. People were okay with the words, but when it came down to it they were always hurt when things didn't go as planned. "The twins have wallets. You could call me from one of theirs. I don't suggest you text me 'hey let's have sex' on their phone but calling me from there to say that is fine. We don't want to get the kids in trouble."
She pulled in closer, she wanted to say something. But she wasn't ready. Hayden wanted to tell her it was alright, but she eventually said something that he hoped was in line with her prior thoughts. "I have not. I've spoken to a lot of people who have. A lot of them live here. All my parents are alive and well, siblings too. And until recently I didn't have friends I cared about enough to feel their loss. So personally I have no experience. Had you asked about being betrayed or hurt by someone, that I can say yes to, but actually losing them -- no. But I'm a great listener if you want to talk about it. I know it hurts. I know it changes the way a person behaves. I know you don't care about Nox, or like him much, but he won't mind if I share his experiences. He lost the power to feel emotions. And that is pretty much a death sentence in itself for a guy like him. But the loss of his mother and father and sister and countless others he cares about solidified one thing in his mind. Suicide is not an option. The mess afterwards that you leave behind isn't worth your free escape. It's not free, you just aren't there to deal with it. None of those deaths in his life were suidide for the most part, but his father drank himself to death after he lost his wife. He left Nox and his sister to clean up the mess. They were young. 17, 18 years old. It changed them. At least I assume it changed his sister too, I never met her."
She pulled in closer, she wanted to say something. But she wasn't ready. Hayden wanted to tell her it was alright, but she eventually said something that he hoped was in line with her prior thoughts. "I have not. I've spoken to a lot of people who have. A lot of them live here. All my parents are alive and well, siblings too. And until recently I didn't have friends I cared about enough to feel their loss. So personally I have no experience. Had you asked about being betrayed or hurt by someone, that I can say yes to, but actually losing them -- no. But I'm a great listener if you want to talk about it. I know it hurts. I know it changes the way a person behaves. I know you don't care about Nox, or like him much, but he won't mind if I share his experiences. He lost the power to feel emotions. And that is pretty much a death sentence in itself for a guy like him. But the loss of his mother and father and sister and countless others he cares about solidified one thing in his mind. Suicide is not an option. The mess afterwards that you leave behind isn't worth your free escape. It's not free, you just aren't there to deal with it. None of those deaths in his life were suidide for the most part, but his father drank himself to death after he lost his wife. He left Nox and his sister to clean up the mess. They were young. 17, 18 years old. It changed them. At least I assume it changed his sister too, I never met her."